I haven't written in this blog for fucking ages. But I felt like I should update in some way.
On Sunday we spread Lindsay's ashes and it's kinda weird that I have not really had anyone to turn to and talk about it. I responded to a very emotional situation, and seeing my parents cry again, by getting ridiculously drunk in the afternoon/evening. It seems to be the only way I know how to cope, and I'm really worried about that fact. I thought I was over my brother's death but when things like these bring it back to the surface it's clear that it will take a lot more work.
And I also think that it's really sad that I can only open up to a fucking blog.
In other news, I'm a bit pissed off with Kingston and just life in general so I'm going to visit Fia for a few days. Not taking my phone, or my laptop, not looking at Facebook, not checking my gmail, can't wait to get away from all the shit.
Hopefully I'll come back feeling like myself and less of a wreck.
Current listening:
Aconite Thrill - Recliner
!!! - Louden Up Now
4 Or 5 Magicians - Wakey Wakey Everyone!
65daysofstatic - The Destruction Of Small Ideas
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